com is down again ... at internet cafe right now

this few days , gastric pain giving me problem

no one understand how i feel right now

2008 , i made my name at bonkers for some good reason , soon is down fall ... she got her reason , i got mine , we simply cant talk this few days .

wake up , go work , drink -drunk , go home watch tv , slp ... everyday is the same .how i wish someone can talk to me !

i keep away myself to woman , going out after work , i eat lesser to save money . now ? everything gone , gastric pain somemore . how stupid am i .

ever since marie thingy . i told myself i don wan to be in the same situation again , in the end , i fall into it . i dono i can stand up again , really painful

got a sms , national call up , i thought raddy msg me to play in the world cup , too bad , is national service call up . called up all my kaki , lucky got a few same wit me , is super lucky is at katib camp .

don assume YOU is you

i wrote this blog becos i need to express my feeling , i got nobody to talk to . in the end , is trouble . can someone tell me wat to do ?

bonkers is in a mess again , nth to do with me , but i really really sad to see someone like this , haiz