got my new job , again with ah kang , kind of long hours , hardly had any slp , 8.30 to 10pm . fast money , no choice , have to work hard now , wanan have good life , i don wan to have hard feeling with my wallet . after new yr , maybe going back to staudy again , save enough money first hehe

1.candle light dinner with u
2.open ait filter
3.adidas watch
4.soccer match
5.a change in u
6. U

i have my temper ,i have my feeling . i jus kept everything to myself , n u jus thought i am alright , happy goes lucky . when u unhappy, who is the person u always scold , did the person say anything ? he jus swallow every shit ! when u need accompany , who is the person who will nv reject u ? am i a subtitute to u ? or am i really dreaming too much ? have u ever think abt my feeling ? everything i do , for who ? for a heartless gal , no lor , if i think u r one , then i have nth to say , cos in my life , i nv think u r one . i trust my eye sight , my future ! jus ask ard , did i ever do so much for a gal b4 ? or even my best frens , wat i did to them ? basically jus wat i should do , i do , i really nv put in any effort , i felt is jus the need as a superb fren ship . this time i went all the way jus for u . if u getting tired , i am more tired . everyday i sit in front of the com for hrs , till 5-6am , jus to make more money , so u don have to bother so many things , went to wrk , even my face turn pale , gastric pain , flu . went home to rest , wake up , i am all alone again . u think i like ? the only time i find u really appreciate my kindness n the things i done is the day we went vivocity . aprt from that , u r jus stubborn n don wanna lose face or should say kiek deng deng . i jus wan to give u the best i could , i wan u to live happily , enjoy wat other couple having , present , gift , understanding , ppl to accompany . everyone know i don make much , but i jus squeeze out all i could to exchange yr happiness , n i get back is basically nothing . u in the car when my mum talk to me , u know how my parent see in me , u knw i lied to them . u think i wan to live in the darkness . spare a thought for me , i also human , i came out from my mum stomach jus like everyone do , (maybe some r not) i donno . live to the fullest , 1/4 i also cant reach . i don need ppl to sympathy me , i don need ppl to tell me wat to do , so i don need comment for this entry ! thanks

everywhere i drive to , or even cross the road , i saw the metal gun grey lancer , is everywhere , n is original , exactly same as mine , only mine is more dirty :))

look at my car park , today i count , there is 6-7 lancer , n is like 4 blks nia , wtf , n one exactly the same as mine , look from kitchen , i thought is mine , but is not . i gave u 1 mth to zeng yr car i tell u . i cant stand it anymore , is like more and more uncles n auntys drive lancer !! i don wan i go out , ppl say hey is this yr dad car ?? if u don wan to zeng , nvm , i will start mine soon , i really get the idea leh , gonna start looking for all the stuff le , i wanna be diff from others , so far , my idea nobody have it , it will be the one n only hehe

fri a ger jio me out , i ask her go where , hmm maybe dinner also gd , i ask her meet where , she say her place , huh !!! yr house , no lah , her blk , ask me go fetch her .. woah woah woah , anyway i no car , brother using . after a while , ask me wanna go vivo city , she wanna go there do something , deng deng , she really wanna meet me for dinner or jus wan me to fetch her to vivo city , nvm , i went to slp , when i woke up , vivo is close anyway , doesnt really care also !

sat leh , working , the cleaner there is a gay , i don really talk to him , i hate gays ! ask me give him the puma beach soccer shirt , deng deng , wat the hell . i say don wan , i wanna wear , he told me kawan kawan mah , fren fren , give me lah .. i so many fren , if everyone say wan this n that , i might as well wrap towel n go work .

sun lor , my list of msn is like fucking so many , but i don really chat with them , some have been in my list for yrs but we jus chatted for 1-2 times , this ger start chatting with me out of the blue , ask for my name la , hp no , weird weird leh , where got ger take number from me de , i also not yandao lah , then ask me i work where la etc then tell me sianz , cos her boss go overseas , then haven get pay , then wanna borrow money from me , wat the hell once again , this r wat she told me on fri , sun msg me again , ask me all over the same Q , i was like stunned , i answer her again lor , boss overseas , then tomoro need to pay dad loan shark ... deng deng , excuse many leh . don u ever thinking of cheating my money , is jus as hard as u be the president , so find other ppl k

stand up , be strong , i know u can do it , u jus need abit of luck ! do it n show me , i thought u say u very gd , u will not lose , do it lor , y now u cant ? talk only meh , still say u strong , a one small incident change yr whole life meh , sleep also cannot ah , r u that weak ? i give u one week to prove it to me ! let us make a bet , if u can do it , after yr exam , i bring u go hong kong . so do it ya

blog=to vent my anger n share my joy with u all

friendster=to see who has new a picture or new gf

msn=to know who is at home right now

hp=to let ppl find me when i offline

room=a place to hang around when i have no place to go

work=to have a better future when u know u have nothing right now

money=jus like sex and gers , when u don have it , feel like shit , when u have alot , u r in heaven

haiz, it jus take 8 days to change my life , bills n debts is all over my head , so many things happened , i really cant handle alone , gonna crazy ... so don be surprise if u all cannot find me , i be MIA till end of the yr !

y u care for him when he don feel it or treasure it ? don u think is waste of time ? do he care abt yr feeling ? he jus care for himself , u also have yr own problem to settle , yet he can do watever he wan , continue to make the mistake ... don u think u r stupid ? i believe this not the first time ... think about it.the reason i saying all this , is becos i wan u to be happy always , i wan to give u the best , stay by yr side always jus like the last few days , be there when u need help , care for u . i know i not in the right person to say all these , but i still wanna tell u , I love you ...

yesterday i only ate 2 burger for the whole day , woke up today , knn , gastric pain , pengz , even no feeling to smoke , force my self to do it , less then 4 puff , i threw it away , even my brother turn ard n see , wondering y i so fast . reach the work place , grab a warm milk , sit down rest lor , bear the pain n walk , lucky titi is there , so i jus stand there n took order , after lunch finally feel better , wosh ... after work i met her , pass her something , within minutes , we start quarrel again , i really donno wat to do . this feel days i jus cant control my temper , i also donno y , as u say i have change , last time where got scold u back de ... i understand how u feeling , but can u try to understand me as well ? i already promise i will not quarrel again le , believe me ! i will try my best . jus heard yr happy voice, i already forget all those thing happen yesterday , my heart start to loosen le , hope everyday u can like that yah :))

u stupid fool , yr mother nv teach u , knn , trying to be racer or wat . do u know that the light is red , n the fucking green man has come out , n u jus dash across , knn , wat u think ? yr life is fucking cheap , mine not , wat if u bang so meuncles n auntie down , maybe is me ? u got brain ? u knn , don ever know which is yr bike , i make sure i will design a new paint work for u , call the ah long limited design , one n only for u !!

and to the lady who look at me as if yr bf is riding a harley ... firstly , the way u look at me , u r so cheap , secondly , knn , y , nv see ppl walk home b4 ? thirdly , yr bike at most 125cc , is not haya or black bird , yrs is a small bird , lastly , my car ANYTIME or maybe i ANYHOW STEP also can win yr small bird , mine is 1600 cc , maybe lose to evo n some big car , yrs leh , close my both eyes lah

look at ppl the correct way , or should say nv look down on ppl , u r not that gd anyway

my life is in the mess , faster ord leh , bring me go croatia !!!! i don wan stay in singapore

i deeply sadden by wat u say to me , u r a scarly cat , hum zi , only know how to sit coffeeshop ! yeah right , i wan u to remember wat u say today , i make sure u swallow it someday ! n i have to right to say u , u r daring , thats y u r now in deep shit ! who don wan to be rich ? u have to find yr chance , strike it while the iron is hot ah , i know , the matter is right now , i don have the energy to hold the hammer , i training myself now , preparing ! talking n doing is diff thing . i can say i rich , i got car , my house is big . doesnt mean i no need to work . i still take bus to work , knn , wat other think of me , this guy i thought got car , on road so yaya , music on fucking loud , like to disturb subaru , now take mrt to work ah ? wah , at kopitiam serve ppl ah . who like ? yes money is importance , but is how much u n i see . i don study much , i jus a failed o lvl student , my parent not rich , i use all my hard earn money to get wat i wan . i don owe ppl , ppl don owe me . my life is great i have a few fucking good brothers , do they have ? i nv go ard asking ppl , eh , got 20 borrow me , wanan buy cigarette leh , or eh i gamble lose , need this n that .for u ger , set yr own limit , set yr goal , don ever set yr goal fucking high up till genting , n prepare for the worst . think u always will lose , so that yr fighting spirit is there . i not pouring cold water hor , don mistaken , i am teaching u the way of life .

i donno wat to say , every sentence i say , sound like a scolding to u . i saying all this is for yr own good . i know u have great mind , great ambition , but u also need to listen ppl advice , gd or bad also listen , no harm listening also . jus look at me , if i nv listen to anyone , i think i now inside squat lor . n u r fucking stubborn , y i say fucking ? u don care n don listen , u jus wanna have yr own ways , once u step into this working world , u cannot have yr own way . sometimes is good to suit others , not everyone is wrong , stupid ppl also right de ok . i nearly went crazy today , if been 2 yrs since i scold ppl in public . maybe i also in the wrong lor , my mind is in the mess !!! don force yrself too much , exam coming soon right , i try to help u if i can , most prob can lah . when u cool down then i tell u wat i gonna do la . i thought my temper sucks , yrs worst . for yr character , rem at vivo city outside , rem wat u call me n told me , my tears nearly came out lor , i nv expect u to say such things , wat liao eh .
all i can say is , take it easy , every problem got its solution , don hesitate to tell me k . we solve togather ! i wanna see u smile again the next time i see u k !

huh ? when ppl show me attitude can lah , i show back , say i xiao qi lah , wtf , wat wrong today ? i owe the whole world ? when u happy , then u smile , then i like stupid boy , need to follow everyone mood , 2006 liao , no more 98 the titanic ah u die i die , now is i sad u sad , i happy u happy . then u all follow me lor , i make sure my mood n yr mood swing till higher then genting !!!

don call my 9183 number , i going to throw away the sim card le , knn , so many phone for wat , also no ppl call , all got gf/bf , forget me liao , ASK YRSELF WHEN IS THE LAST TIME I TALK TO U N SEE U , even my father know how to sms me , btw he is in brunei since i was in my mum stomach , he only come back during chinese new year . if u wan , come n ask me , i don anyhow give ppl no , no use also , u jus wanna make yr phone book full nia , ermm y don u add contact like police 999 , fire fighter 995 , plumber la , carpenter la , like that sure full , correct anot ? ermmmm who know where got sell pager ah , i wanna buy MEMO JAZZ white colour de !

i know alot of ppl is reading my blog , i don care wat u all think of me , if u step on my tail , thats it , i will rememebr it n yr father mother name i also remember ! jus a meaningful sentence for u all , think b4 u talk , to prevent misunderstanding AND don ka lan jiao wei . be a real man ! in my eyes , some r not man , they all jus some fucking ah guas . i dare to say , i already tulanz alot of ppl liao , so better watch yr step , LOOK FOR MY TAIL < DON STEP IT ! sorry if i too rude

yes , when u all wan something , u all can tell me nicely , after u all get wat u wan , same thing , u remember yr father n mother name n forgot my name ! i don owe u or u don owe me leh , we r jus helping each other , since i can help u , y u cant help me , jus saying that u r pai sei or lazy or wat , enough meh , u say u cant help me . ok lor , next time i also know lor , DON EVER ASK ME FOR HELP , i not free , i need to work , i need to slp ! gd reason ? DON ASK ME DRIVE U BACK , i no time ! gd reason ? DON ASK ME GO FETCH U , petrol is expensive ! DON ASK ME GO EAT , at home i got bread n butter , sometimes got kaya ! is enough ! my car is for show nia , my car park parking lot is full , so need my car to fight for lot , give me a chance to fight with the uncles also ! actually is not my car lah , also not under my name , i where got money to buy car , i don have a rich FATHER , there fore no wrx or evo or merc . i only got bmw nia lah , B-us M-rt W-alk ! if u saw thick cash in my wallet , i not rich , is jus that i draw out all my money in the bank , my bank account is 0 , don mistaken ! my wallet not gucci or LV , is jus a birthday present i bought for myself at woodland mrt de pasar malan , quite cheap leh , buy more still got discount ! don ask me go other place like drink coffee , in singapore i only know got 1 coffeeshop that is at 156 , the rest look like gang member club house ! n those came my house b4 , is not as big as u think lah , we rent it from somebody de . i come from a very poor family , i collect tins n card board n cans to survive , if u all got old newspaper , can call me also !

after so many yrs n so many lessons , comes to money , father mother name also don remember , fucking disappointed ! same old pattern , cant u change ?