i wont post anything right now , no need come n view , same goes to msn , u r lucky if u saw me . i will be back when i start to smile again .

my soul is taken away by you , i am left with nothing . if i can turn back the time , i will change the date to 29-02-08 . is not the happiest but is the time my happiness generate ...

career to me is nothing , yes i proud to said this , my ex boss really like me , he gave me employee of the month , which is like only me got it, i work there about 1 yr . no one else got it . i even got my pay increase within the 2nd mth , n i was paid highest for a period of time . ppl around take care of me . i am really happy . thats history . i nv forget that day , 2 of them cried , make me wanna tears in the eyes . i wanna stay but i got no choice . i made a mistake once , don wanna repeat again , job can find others , family , gf u cant .

i am not saying i am great , i am jus willing to sacrifice anything for my loved one .

i used to put frens in the first , neglect my loved one , in the end ...

i tried not to make the same mistake , but i made a new mistake which i nv done b4 . plead not guilty , n i get the death sentence , i don even have the chance to appeal .

this 3 weeks , i found out , frens no need so many , gd frens too . need 1 or 2 , thats it , is enough . my phone list got abt 300 names , my phone rang less than 2 times a day . i should get a pagar instead .

ppl see me as go lucky kind , i be always creating jokes , rubbish , lame stuff . thats the happy of me , did u all ever see my sad face ? do u know i am going through wat kind of shit ?

my fren son , 14 yrs old , jump down of the block cos his gf broke up with her , when i know , my both legs become soft , wat the hell is this world going on ? i am able to say this cos that time , i lucky to have her ard . now i know wat the feeling ...

my fren died in SQ006 , he had a chance to survive , but y he went in n get himself killed ? cos he wanted to save his colleague . he was a national hero after that .

last week till now ,i been wondering when a person died , where will he/she go ?
will he/she meet his/her family member or relatives who already passed away ? wat izzit like lying in the coffin , then all yr frens come , yr family crying for u .

i thought of this , cos i really feel like dying , i really wanna die . but i still cannot imagine how my parents will be if i die , how my relatives feel ? i know they will be sad , but i don wish to see they cried cos of me .

who can understand me ? if u say u understand , i tell u , u r fucking wrong , unless u can tell me wat i wan , i don even know wat i wan and u can tell me u understand me . wat the hell

soon , i will go to a far far away , learn how to stand on my feet again . i got stab in the front n back . i jus cant take it .

very soon , everyone will start to forget me . i be back or not , i donno .

one thing for sure , i will still love u , wait for u . remember , don guilty of wat u done . love is like that . but i jus cant take it .

i nv have such busy n rush for time b4

brother slping , so i have to send my mum n her fren to the airport . 5.15 , i was at sembawang , i need to rush , cos 6am , i have to fetch maine . tpe road accident , from lane 1 to 3 , btw , tpe got 3 lane !

6am , i somehow manage to get to maine house , n rush to 7-11 to buy her breakfast . sweating in the car , i rush her to the airport , then accident vehicle still not yet clear , causing a minor-major jam . police will taking photo of the vehicle . suddenly , heard something which i so long nv heard , nvm !!! she look gan chiong , cos gonna late , n i am the driver , i more gan chiong than her !in the end , still in time for her ...

wake up , knn overslept again , rush to pick maine back .

went home change , then go to the court [not courts] , cb , i tell u , is damn scary , my heart was beating very fast , i scare cos i didnt bring money , in case they wanna charge me today , cant pay , means in the lock up liao . left me alone outside the room , others went in liao , then come take my IC , then the police told me, don have yr name , u can go back liao ... faint !

nth to do , went to bonkers to drink alone sia , n the funny thing , almost all the old bird came back for drink also . fucking miss the times working there lor .

boss is forever joker , bring me to another pub , then he go back himself , throw me alone . kat's noise is forever loud , she know i am down , n she is sad cos of me . joel is forvever the da jie , walk ard drink plain water .

lucky i control , if not my parking fee will be great haha

some of the chinese beyond's song

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finish watching ndp08 parade , fast forward de haha , jus watch the guard of honour n their marching .. remind me of ndp04 . 55000 spectators , the feeling is nth to say , shiok !

saturday , gathering with the sembawang old boys , old as in hmmm some already 60 years old , i am the 2nd generation , 3rd generation r in the sec sch . i in the middle , i first join them about 12 yrs ago , every year i will jus join them . to me , they r my mentor, they taught me soccer when i jus pri 2 .their story is really happening . they also give me guidance abit life , soccer . really taught me alot .

sunday was another soccer day , went to play 2 side , lucky no pain in my knee , i already test liao , i juggle the ball yesterday , nth happen . ya 7 ppl only , play like 1 hr , all tired , then one guy jio me long range passing , i already dying of thirst , lan lan play .

knee starting to pain again . siao la , how like that ? to me , playing soccer is jus like sex leh , no play , not happy hahaha .

is all yr 'lan jiao wei'

knnb , this 4 letters for U !

finally i score but i think i got some serious knee problem ...

jus finish my maggi mee , is been so long since i last cooked haha , taste so nice yummy ... but 1 packet not enough leh hahaha

hot hot hot ... wat a hot day !

game at 5pm , shit , i need a sun tanning oil

this team is totally diff class from turin , 3/4 of the team is 50 yrs old n above , the rest is 40 n above , n me , the youngest of all . normally i play for them , i play more than 1 position , the last match i played , i play 4 postions , forward , left right centre mid . but one thing is sop , they love to make use of my speed . so i have to run up n down like erica's KOKO . :)) but i don bite the legs of table n chair wahahaha

they thought me mentally prepare for game , i try to follow , i went for a long run on monday , fri went for a short run , BUT went drinking after that , wahahahahaha stupid right , i even dribble the ball in my house ya hahaha , no one at home , if not my mum will chase me with a chopper i think .

ken , count me out when that is beefeater , i reach hm cant slp , air con room sweat somemore ... something must me wrong , lie on the bed 9am then slp . wth

problem , problem , now , another one coming up . my problem is like a movie , coming soon every week 1 show .. every week 1 problem

24 yrs , i nv celebrated a single father's day , the last thing i bought for my dad is dunhill !

family means father and mother i love you

thats the next tattoo i wanna put 'FAMILY' , it represent me alot , now like the one i had now .

i saw a pic , a heart cut by a blade , with blood dripping , quite a meaningful idea ya . the situation i having now .

i hiding in the room , so she is . my tears in my eyes , but her tears is flowing down